Doctors

I am just so good.
At spacing out somewhere.
At enjoying scenery. Smile, and walk away.
Feeling full by being simple.
Don't like anything dragged, or hanged in my brain.

Seeing them, the medical doctors, I always wonder, why do they want to be doctors. Patients being ungrateful, disregard, disobey command, distrust, the worst they got sued after all the efforts. I mean, ah what a 'worthless' job.

I feel it that way. It's not that I feel, but I feel for them. A bit.
What's wrong with the society.
And all.

Ah you doctors, you got my fullest respect.
And thank you for everything.
For treating us the ungrateful people who eats everything we want and then got sick.
Forgive us for not thanking you well.
Forgive us for not taking care of ourself.

Ward duty is essentially to expose me to variety of cases, but hmm as usual, this is what caught me the most. Being deep to something unrelated and then being shallow for things that supposed. Nice!

p/s: Just met super nice patient. Can't get the branula in. The patient just steadily laugh like nothing happened and very cooperative too. SOS medical doctor there for help. (entah specialist mana aku rembat tengah type notes depan komputer, rambut pun dah ada uban haha). He did once, and already in. The patient thanks me. I apologize. He thanks again. Apologize. He thanks again. Sobs. The mom also stands there and being very understanding. Tak buat muka pelik pun. He just asks me casually like, doctor umur berapa, berapa tahun dah kerja, belajar mana dulu tengah-tengah examine. Haha wujud jugak patient baik macam ni. Walaupun dia tahu kita tengah tak konfiden pun, dia macam nak bagi kita selesa. I will remember this day the most. Thankyouh!

I should study for OT cases tomorrow. But 1 hour already used here, for the sake of dopamine.
Semoga Tuhan mudahkan hari-hari berbaki di OS, dan Tuhan lembutkan hati doktor, tak marah marah. Amin.