Al-Furqan

For this time Ramadhan, I'm falling in love with this surah. Lalala~ I like Maryam actually, and I still am. But Al-Furqan give me another feelings. It feels so good that you yourself will be wanting to memorize them without being told to do so. It has been so long. Maybe with a help of a little trick this year; actually I start the tilawah from the middle, from juz 15! The reason is because I like to start new and afresh. Hiks. And I need lotsss of time to dive (Asyik terdampar dekat juz depan depan je, juz belakang bila nak kenanya!)

And especially this ayat:

I don't know why but I kind of.. Well huh yeh I like those combination of words. Hmm tabaroka-buruj-siraj-qamar-munir. Those. I know too, nothing bombastic there, but yeh I like! It feels smooth, soft and beautiful.

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A lot of new side of the world emerges in front of my eyes. I must say that my parents have done a very good job there protecting me as soon as I was born till before I start my carrier. All the islamic-based schools that I've attended, it helps me get back to the track, all the ideal environment I have been living in, for that, thank you so much mak abah. Now I understand. Now I know why. And this is the real world, each day encountering a very different kind of flocks, a very weird issues (pelik-pelik zaman sekarang ni hu); within Allah's mercy, may we be protected from all the bads.

We are indeed not angels.
But we are not devils too.
We are human beings.
We have nafs, and we indeed many times do sins.
We are not perfect.
We got imperfections here and there.
Faulty everywhere.
That we might want to give up. (Me!)
 

This is maybe another phase of life. Because It feels so awkward and bittersweet. You start to question what is real? You seek meanings even deeper than always. Which path I'm gonna choose, this or that? Which one suits me? A lot of thoughts.

And faith..

And fate..
that struck on me (almost feh)


'This is the best scenario for me'
'That we just have to brave all those'
'And step lightly as it goes by Allah's command'

I found this so much comforting:
'Each day shall pass'


Apa khabar mak?
Rindu.
Allahummaghfirlaha warhamha wa'afiha wa'fuanha.