Selamat Hari Raya

It feels like I have been living for long.

But I am only 24.

At average, it could reach to 70s something.

Long journey ahead.

To some, this is the age where you plan to be successful.

Or atleast have some ambition, some goal. Be on fire.

But I am 24. I think like 54. Sometimes I feel I have run long enough, what else?

I just want to sit down. 

Just yesterday, I dream of dying.

I can hear the doctor says I have no chance. And then I am going through it; the dying process in my dream. (Dalam mimpi pun nak berdrama hahaha)

Hmmmmm---

Nothing.

It takes a lot of my heart.

I feel destroyed.

It is not easy. 

My real self is only when you are around.

I am faking right now.

Don't pity don't be nice to me just because I am yatim.
Please don't. I feel betrayed. Just be nice because you want to. I am okay.

Maaf zahir batin.